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Click hereI know nothing like the back of my hand
I don't even know what that means
I see through my fingers
Then glance up the mirror
Looking at myself I am lost.
Lost as in I just don't know
I don't know who I am
I don't know where i am going
I don't know if I will be alive tomorrow
I don't know
I wanted love like the next guy
I wanted to be with and to share with
I dreamt the dream of living
Living my life in happiness
In happiness not in despair
I am broke and in trouble
I am broken and can't be fixed
I have fixed myself before again and again
Now I have lost the heart
Now I have lost the will
I want to embrace love
I want it so much I ache from the thought
Instead I embrace death
I don't want to die
Yet I don't want my life anymore
How can I love when i hate myself?
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to turn
I don't know if I will be here tomorrow
I don't know