AMA - The Boyfriend Ch. 111-120

But she was also such a fucking bitch.

"That's not good enough," I said, breaking my gut feeling of protocol and decency around even bad apologies. Someone apologizes, you're supposed to accept it, that's what I was taught growing up. But I couldn't be truthful and accept this one.

"What?" Heather asked, a little stunned.

"Robbie-" Cattie whispered, though she sounded like she didn't know if she wanted me to explain, or stop.

"That's not good enough, Heather," I repeated myself. "You can't just apologize for me and Cassidy feeling offended. Cattie is Cass's best friend, and you've made it pretty clear since the first hours of this trip that you not only didn't give a flying fuck about mine and Cass's relationship, but you also wanted to make this trip into a booze cruise for your own perverted gain."

"What the fuck is your problem?" Heather demanded, starting to stand. "I never-"

"Heather, shut up and listen," I said. "You started this week by trying to convince my fiancee and everyone else that they should get drunk and go topless so that you could be surrounded by hot, topless and tipsy women. You weren't being subtle. Then you organized sexual games so that you could make out with people other than Cattie, and got pissed when things didn't go your way. And then youbet your girlfriend's body to try and force winningmy fiancee's. Don't try to fucking talk your way out of it - if you had won, you were planning on having sex with Cassidy however you wanted. So yeah, I'm offended, Heather. I'm offended by you, and the way you treat other people. And I'm especially offended by the way you treat Cattie, because while you've been inexcusably aggressive to everyone else, you've been a raging cunt the way you've been acting towards her. So yeah, becauseshe asked, Cassidy and I are going to keep our distance from her for as long asshe wants us to. But she deservesbetter, Heather, and if you can't manage that then Cass and I will be there for her."

Heather looked shocked, and pissed, and devastated. She was standing but hadn't moved towards the kitchen. Her hands were curled into fists and I couldn't tell if she was about to burst into a scream at me or break out into tears. Maybe both. I wasn't planning on sticking around to find out which.

I turned and hugged Cattie hard. "Sorry, but we love you too much. I couldn't not say anything anymore," I whispered to her. She didn't hug me back, looking a little in shock herself by my outburst of frustration. "As soon as you need me or Cass, tell us and we'll be there."

And then I kissed her on the cheek and pulled away, leaving the situation by heading into the corridor and to my room. Neither of them said anything as I went.

I shut the door and sat on the bed, the adrenaline of the confrontation dropping and leaving me feeling jittery and a little sick. Looking down at my hands, I couldn't help but think of holding Cattie last night. Of fucking her, right there in the room, while her girlfriend was next door.

And I couldn't help but think of Cassidy, and how many sexual situations she'd been in when I was clueless nearby.

They weren't the same thing, but my brain and my heart didn't care. I flopped back on the bed, feeling the weight of Cassidy's truth sitting on my chest again. The weight of her betrayals, and her hurt over it.

I cried again, not the bone-shaking feeling I'd had before but quiet and personal. Maybe that was a good thing, that I wasn't losing control of myself so much, but the hurt was still there. What Cassidy did wasn'tfair. It wasn't OK.

There was a knock on the door.

"Who is it?" I asked, barely keeping my voice from croaking.

It opened and Terra slipped inside, closing the door behind her. She got up on the bed and sat with her legs crossed, pulling my head into her lap and starting to run her fingers through my hair.

"I was in my room with the door open and heard all of that," she whispered softly. "I had to wait for them to move, or I would have come over sooner. I'm so sorry, Robbie."

Her fingers on my scalp were soothing, and I closed my eyes for a moment. "For what? You don't have anything to be sorry for," I asked.

"Not like that," she whispered with a soft smile. "Just... for what you are going through. Heather needed to hear that, but you aren't that blunt of a guy. If you weren't going through what you are, I'm sure you would have found a better way to say that. I could hear the pain in your voice when you were letting her have it."

"I'm just tired of getting taken advantage of," I whispered, my heart clenching a little to admit that. No oneliked getting conned or screwed over, and that's how I felt. Cassidy took advantage of my love all those years ago. Now Heather was taking advantage of Cattie, and was using me as a convenient scapegoat for all her own shit.

"I know," Terra whispered. "I know." She leaned down and kissed my temple.

Chapter 115

Terra and I sat like that quietly for a few minutes, her soothing me with her fingers in my hair and on my scalp and neck. Then the door to the room opened again and Cassidy poked her head in, clearly looking for me and surprised at seeing us the way we were.

It's funny, I never would have been caught in a situation like this prior to the trip. Even though Terra and I were being completely platonic - the 'worst' thing was that she was in a bikini top, but between her tiny bust and the full coverage of the cups it wasn't scandalous whatsoever - there was no way I would have been in this position with anyone other than Cass. I wouldn't have thought it was right or OK, and I would have been bottling up any emotions I had.

But things were different now, and even though Cass immediately got a concerned look on her face as she stepped into the room fully, I could tell it was for me and not for what she'd found.

"What's wrong?" she asked, closing the door behind her and stepping to the foot of the bed but not climbing on. "Should I give you two some privacy?"

"Robbie let Heather have it," Terra said. "She gave a really shitty 'sorry you're offended' kind of apology and he told her exactly what the rest of us have been seeing and feeling. But he's still hurt, Cassidy."

"Oh, Tiger," Cass said, climbing up on the bed and sitting mirrored to Terra so she could look down at me while she took one of my hands in both of hers. "Good job, and I'm so sorry, and thank you, and I love you."

I smirked just a little. "That's a lot of stuff in one little sentence, hon."

"It was, but I needed to say it all at once," she smiled down at me. "Especially the sorry and the I love you." She glanced up at Terra. "Was it brutal?"

"He could have been nastier for sure," she said. "Honestly, he's the most polite pissed person I think I've ever met except for one of my friend's Moms growing up. She was this southern belle church lady type with a syrupy sweet voice that never swore and never raised her voice, but she could be brutally honest without ever sounding nasty about it. Robbie was like a manly version of that. Firm and blunt, but fair."

"Baby," Cass whispered, squeezing my fingers in hers as she smiled.

"I just said what we've talked about, I think," I said. "And I know I kept warning you not to, Cass. It just- it happened."

"We were trying not to pry into their relationship," Cass filled in for Terra. "Cattie needed support, obviously, so we agreed going on the offensive wouldn't be fair."

"I get it," Terra nodded. "I wasn't sure what to say to her either. I mean, how do you approach someone and say 'Hey, I think your girlfriend is trying to fuck anything with tits and it's making everyone uncomfortable' without making things awkward?"

"Not like I just did," I said.

"True," Terra smiled lopsidedly.

"What about us?" Cassidy asked Terra. "I know our situation has been... different with everyone. Are we making people uncomfortable? Or just you and JC?"

Terra shook her head. "No, it's different. I mean, it feels that way at least, especially knowing what I know. If I was in the dark and just saw what was going on, I'd probably think it was a little weird, but neither of you are being aggressive about it. I'm sure the college guys are confused as hell why half the girls on this trip seem to only be interested in Robbie though."

Cassidy laughed softly. "Oh, they definitely are," Cass said. "Honestly, watching Wanda, Becca and Ami all immediately avoid flirting with them when they showed up was kind of funny. Not to mention me, cause ick. Even Zenya isn't really engaging with them, so all they've got are Heels, Ginnie and Sherry."

I sighed a little at the mention of Sherry. "Just FYI, hon. Sherry got pissy with me again. She walked in on Leia and I playing video games."

"Is that how you ended up naked in the lake, Tiger?" Cass asked with a smirk.

"She's really good at fighting games," I chuckled.

"Jesus, how many of these women are you going to have sex with?" Terra asked, teasing.

"At least three, probably five, maybe seven," Cassidy said matter of factly. "Not counting the girl at the gas station."

"You fucked the girl with the ass back there?' Terra asked in surprise.

"Her ex was an asshole and she wanted to get back at him with some revenge porn to make it obvious she was over him," Cass said. "You should have seen Robbie, he was a fucking stud."

Terra just shook her head, looking at us incredulously. "So, who then? Cattie happened last night, and anyone who knows Becca can see how she's looking at him."

"Cattie, Becca and Wanda have carte blanche," Cass said. "And I need to talk to-"

"Babe," I interrupted her. "That's not fair to anyone to talk about them."

"True, you're right," Cassidy sighed. "Sorry."

"You two are something else," Terra said, shaking her head.

"You want on that list?" Cassidy asked.

"What?"

"The list. Of women who have carte blanche with Robbie," Cassidy said. "Actually, don't answer that. I don't know what's up with you and JC, but as long as whatever happens is OK on your guys' end then I'm totally fine if you want to hook up with my man, OK? Just don't use Robbie to cheat."

Terra opened her mouth in slight surprise, then closed it and furrowed her brow at what she was being told, a ripple of emotions moving through her. "Thanks?" she finally said, half a question.

"This is so awkward," I said.

"Hey, just thought I would put it out there," Cassidy smirked. She pulled one hand from mine and ran her fingers through my hair alongside Terra's. "Now, if you're feeling a bit better, I think you should go make an appearance up top so that we can make you look like the stud king you are."

Chapter 116

Terra left us in the room, saying she wanted to go change quickly before she'd join us up on the top deck of the houseboat.

"Cass," I said once she was gone. "Terra and JC-"

"I know, Tiger," she calmed me. I'd sat up on the edge of the bed and she moved to stand in front of me, putting her hands on my shoulders so we could look each other in the eye. "I know. I'm not going to push. I like Terra and JC, but JC is kind of a boy and I think Terra might like an encounter with a real, well-rounded and perfectly handsome man. She's already been flirting and kissing you, and you did say she told you about their agreement in their relationship, so I just wanted to make sure the door was open."

"You're trouble, you know that?" I asked, shaking my head with a grin.

"I know," she said, stepping a little closer and hugging me to her. "Are you OK?'

"Yeah, I am," I nodded against her breasts. "I just needed to cool down, and things hit me again a little bit. Not as bad as before."

"OK," she said, rubbing my back. "If you don't want to come up, you don't need to."

"No, I'm fine now," I said. "But I do need to talk to you about something first." I turned her with my hands at her waist and got her to sit on my knee, and she looped her arms around my shoulders.

"What's up?" she asked.

"So, Becca and I talked right before lunch and she'd like to meet up during the photoshoots tonight," I said. "And she says she wants to play with both of us, but for this first time she's asking for it to be just me and her since it's been so long since she's had sex with someone."

Cassidy hesitated, then nodded. "That's fine. I'll do my own thing, or help someone else, and you two can have some privacy."

"Are you sure you're OK with that?" I asked. "You don't sound sure."

She kissed me, soft and earnest. "Robbie, I'm sure. I just needed to absorb it for a second, that this is happening. I know I'm the one driving this but it's still weird for me too. I love you, and I know Becca is going to treat you well, and you're going to rock her world."

"If you have any reservations about this, it's OK," I said. "You just need to tell me."

"Thank you, Tiger," she said, hugging me and resting her head on my shoulder. "But I'm 100 percent sure. I'm going to want to hear about it after, obviously, but I was serious. Cattie, Wanda and Becca, and now Terra, have carte blanche. Technically so does Ami, I guess, but I doubt she acts on it before your date tomorrow."

"You're right, this is weird," I sighed, hugging her back.

"So you really laid into Heather, huh?" she asked.

"The only thing I didn't do was point out how Sherry was being a problem because of her," I said. "But I fucking hope I didn't piss off Cattie."

"I doubt it," Cass said and kissed my cheek.

Terra came and knocked on our door, and the three of us went up to the top deck to see what was going on. It looked like the College Guys were setting up for tubing runs again, though they would need to be careful towing riders out of our cove to do it. JC waved to us from down on the speedboat when he saw his girlfriend and Cass and I looking down - his cluelessness made me feel a little bad all over again about Cassidy's offer to Terra. I liked JC and I definitely didn't want to screw up him and Terra.

Most of the guys seemed to want to party and drink instead of do the boating thing, the novel idea of partying with a bunch of internet models more attractive than whatever else they could have been doing that day. I ended up slipping into the hot tub on the Singles Boat, away from the action on the Couples Boat. Cass joined me on one side, and I very quickly had Wanda slipping in on my other side and slipping my arm around her shoulders as she leaned back. Then Becca joined us, sitting across from me, and the four of us just talked.

All three of them were wearing the caps, their little message to me that they were 'my girls' for the day. All three of them were planning sexual encounters with me later. Yet we talked about everything and nothing, and things never got sexual or weird. The most things ever strayed beyond four friends talking in a hot tub was when the jets would turn on and a foot or two would brush against mine deliberately, though the three of them didn't show any sign of who it might be doing that.

Eventually Ami joined us to escape a conversation she'd been having with Ginnie and a couple of the guys, and she slipped in next to Cassidy. My fiancee leaned over and whispered something to her, which made the Asian girl raise her eyebrow and glance around, and then nod with a little smile. Then Cass pulled off her cap and put it on Ami's head, shifting it around.

Fuck, Ami looked cute with a cap on forwards or backward, too.

"Really?" I asked.

Ami grinned a little bit and shrugged.

We kept talking, though the conversation shifted to some fandoms I didn't really care about so I was quieter. Eventually we started to sit up on the edge of the hot tub to give ourselves time to cool down, and then people started to filter out. Becca went to check to make sure the boating stuff was going fine and no one was going to get injured doing something stupid. Wanda went to check on Heels. Zenya joined us, bringing one of the college guys with her. His name was Duke and he was a good ol' southern boy who had a hard time following the nerdy conversation between the girls.

He made the mistake of trying to talk sports with me, and I kept him entertained for about five minutes before I ran out of anecdotes.

While all of this was going on I noticed that Heather and Cattie had come up top at some point. Heather was in a bikini again, her athletic curves showing off, but Cattie was dressed in jean shorts and a t-shirt. Neither of them came over towards us, and Cass eventually excused herself, whispering to me that she would wander over and try and get a temperature reading on Cattie without breaking her promise that we'd keep our distance today. I kissed her and sent her on her way.

When two more of the guys, accompanied by Ginnie and Sherry, started coming towards us Ami stretched and started getting out of the tub. "I think I'm done in here, too," she said.

"Heading down?" I asked.

"Mhmm," she nodded. "I'm hoping my spot is open."

"Mind if I join you?" I asked.

"Sure," she grinned.

"What are you two sneaking off to do?" Zenya asked teasingly.

"One of the best ways to spend an afternoon," I said. "Read a book sitting next to a beautiful woman."

Chapter 117

I went and fetched one of the paperbacks I'd brought along from my bags. It was actually a little surprising that I hadn't touched either of the books so far - I liked reading, almost more than watching tv shows or movies - and had brought three paperbacks just in case the trip ended up being a flop for me and I didn't like hanging out with many of the girls.

Obviously, that hadn't happened.

Book in hand, I crossed back over to the Singles Boat since I didn't see Ami in ours, and found her on the couch. She'd changed into baggy sweatpants that were high on her waist along with her bikini top. She also still had on Cassidy's hat.

"Hey," she grinned, shifting on the couch to make room for me.

"Hi," I said and leaned down to kiss her on the cheek before plopping down onto the couch next to her.

"What are you reading?" she asked me.

"I went to this used bookstore that was having a 'Box o' Books' sale on paperbacks a while back. I think this one is a spy book - not my usual bag, but if it's crap I only paid about fifty cents per book."

"Ooh, that sounds awesome," Ami grinned. "I need to find a place that does that. I just like the feel of a book over a tablet or e-reader."

"Same," I said.

I settled in, cracking open the first page. I don't know how long we were there, but I do know we both shifted every once in a while. Eventually Ami went and got us a couple of water bottles from the fridge, and when she sat back down I pulled her feet up into my lap and started massaging them with one hand while I held my book with the other. She didn't say anything about it, though I knew she was watching me for a bit before going back to her book, a soft smile on her face.

It must have been over an hour, and Ami had shifted again. She'd lain down on her back with her head on the armrest, which pushed her feet further out so it didn't make sense for me to be massaging them, and now her thighs were resting across my lap and acting as a little table for me. She was squirming every once in a while though, and she eventually sat up and tugged on her bikini top. "Do you mind?" she asked.

"Mind what?" I asked.

"The knot is bugging me," she said. "Mind if I take off my top?"

I laughed and shook my head. "Ami, I promise you I'll never mind if you want to go topless around me."

"OK," she smiled, and quickly reached back and undid one of the knots and pulled it off, setting it on the floor in front of the couch before leaning back, her enhanced breasts free to point her little brown nipples to the sky. "I just wanted to make sure I wasn't making you uncomfortable or anything."